TRYING TIMES AS A MOTHER.................

So last night my two year old daughter is playing in her room and I start smelling this foul smell I thought to myself "this can't be good". Of course it wasn't, she had her diaper off and was playing in her poop. She had it smooshed in her hands and on her face, I am praying that she did not eat it. I cannot believe that she had done this. And the feeling of disgust just overwhelmed me. 
Well, tonight came along and guess what??? Yup you got it she did it again! This time she put her poop in her pony purse (purse that holds her toy pony) and brought it out to me. I am so frustrated with this behavior. And every time I think about it I picture her in a psyche ward somewhere smearing her poop on the walls and eating it! I don't want to think these things about my baby girl, and I have no idea how to stop her from doing this. 
I am beyond my breaking point here. I am going to call her doctor tomorrow get her in to be "seen". But first I think she needs a little visit with her grandma to give me some time to myself. I think right now I really need it before school starts, which is Sunday I might add. So even more stress on my shoulders. I will be so relieved to get her past these toddler stages!

Now on to the weight loss............
I found it kinda hard to splurdge last night when all my 2 year old wanted to eat was apples and oranges. I think sometimes I am blessed with times like these when she is such a good inspiration (regardless of the above). She really is keeping me on my toes and not letting me fall off the wagon (so to speak). I really wanted cherry pie filling and whipped cream, but I settled for the apples and oranges with her lol. I think it was a good choice on my part. 
I weighed myself yesterday and it said 278 pounds I think, can't really remember. However when I rechecked it this morning it said 281 so I guess that is 3 pounds down. And the only reason I weighed myself this morning was because I couldn't remember what it said yesterday. I still am not a fan of the scale, maybe one day that will change????
I loved the Biggest Loser show last night. I think I am rooting for the white team, but I got a sneaky feeling that they are not going to make it that far. Now the Red Team.....that lady is going to ruin it for her husband, and that is completely sad because he really wants to change. I just don't think that she see's herself has needing the change, I think she just wants him on the show for a chance to win the prize-money. I guess we will see how it all unfolds.